birth order trait

i was born as the eldest sister in the siblings. and for sure, i had already seen too much character in my family. 


as the eldest, i am only agree with some part of the characters that those psychologists claimed before. they claimed that the eldest siblings  tend to be responsible, perfectionist, mature, a good leader, have higher IQ and low self esteem. 


tend to be responsible is such a big character. for me, sometimes i am such a responsible person such as when it comes about my family and my beloved one. i want the best for them and i am willing to sacrifice all of that i had to make them happier. like taking this chemical engineering things, it is not the one that i really want to do but my parents really want to see me as an engineer. i have choices and it is independent for me  to choose what i want to be. but seeing my  parents to be happy and feeling relieved as i have the future is such a big responsibility. 


being mature also is another option. seriously, i confessed that i can be immature sometimes especially when i am with my parents and my best friends. but when i must make decision, i be mature automatically.  


that is my opinion. how about you ?